caught.

to avoid being/feeling frustrated/flustered, clarence willed himself into apathy. "just don't care. you. don't. care. it doesn't matter. nothing does," and he felt more free.

nirvana is not nothingness. it is the absence of somethingness. the lack of desire. without desire, there can be no disappointment. without disappointment, life at last is bliss. things cannot go wrong, if right does not exist.